"i personally don't enjoy my art very much. i have often treated it as a sort of fantasy realm to retreat to, not facing reality head on. its creation has thus always been a highly self-indulgent act, mostly to cover up a sense of worthlessness and directionlessness. it's a safe haven, i know what i can and want to do, and i do exactly that, but at least i can pretend like there is more to it than just that.
that is what makes me feel a certain dread whenever i look back at most of my works.
of course, everyone is free to think about or interpret my art however they want, my suspicion is just that it doesn't invite any of that in the first place. to whoever does take sth from it regardless, i hope whatever u can take will help u in ur ways, and, more importantly, contribute in some way to the downfall of capitalism."
...wow. fascinating T.T
"idk, dm me i guess, we can figure it out"
commission for my good friend Joy, who makes incredible music